I listened for you in the throat of summer, in the fanfare of trees I lingered and spelt their shadows you rose out of my darkest soundings, inaudible fish eyelessly twirling in warm currents autumn cauled your arrival, tracking my veins with weariness and floated you out on sad leaves of blood down to the icy waters where my fingers will never prise into life your voiceless promise and my kisses will never spark your hair joyously into brief unknowable beauty nor will the eager petals of your skin char to brutal seed